Do you constantly stop yourself from doing things because you hope that you’re going to get pregnant or you’re planning some sort of fertility related procedure, etc.? I’m doing that right now. It sucks. It is just one more thing to get mad about relating to infertility.
One of my goals once I moved here is to participate in a class. To not just meet new people in Seattle and hopefully make friends but also to stimulate my mind/body and keep me busy. I work from home as a consultant and so not being in an office precludes me from meeting new people in an environment that fosters friendships. There is a dance studio in our neighborhood – I could even technically walk there from our apartment. BUT, the class (ballet) next available class that I would want to take is an 8 week-long class that starts on November 7. It goes through January 22 (because of the holidays). If I signed up for it, I would miss at least two, if I move forward with the IVF cycle in December and then after the IVF I’m not going to want to do any exercise because I’m going to be so afraid of it not allowing my body to accept a pregnancy.
So, I’m once again being lame and not signing up for a class that I’d love to take. I took ballet as a child and took a few adult classes off and on a few years ago. I love it and would love to get into it again (for fun).
I guess I’ll have to sign up for an art class or a writing class but then I face the same challenge of missing a couple of classes when I’m gone. Sigh. I’ll figure it out.
I might just sign up for something because I shouldn’t let it rule my life.
Darn infertility. It interrupts life in so many ways that people don’t even realize. This sucks. Period.