I’ve got so many posts in my head but I’m so tired I can hardly think straight. Life is getting easier in some ways and in some much harder.
It’s easier because I’m more comfortable as a mom. Also because Roo feels like a newborn and not a preemie anymore. At her two month appointment last week, she weighed in at 9 lbs 5 oz or something. She’s a solid baby not a delicate little thing anymore.
Harder because she is awake more and she has a temper. If she is unhappy about anything she makes it clear to us. She doesn’t like a dirty diaper. She must eat when she is hungry, which is all the time. She hates to be put down for more than five minutes. She is a demanding baby. I’m not surprised.
I wonder if it is personality or if it’s because she’s a preemie. She is a needy kid.
I’m embarrassed to admit that she still doesn’t sleep in her bed on her own. Ever. She sleeps in someone’s arms all the time. Either I hold her or MH holds her or my dad (my parents are still here) holds her. I’m still nervous about this spitting up when she sleeps and she is so darn noisy. I know I need to let go and trust that she won’t choke. A lot of babies spit up while laying on their backs in their cribs and are perfectly fine. I need to get over it. And the noise?! I just need to get used to it. MH can sleep through anything so it doesn’t bother him. I have to let go for my own sanity.
My excuse is that even though she is chronologically 9 weeks old, her adjusted age is only 3 weeks old. Am I using that excuse as a crutch? Someone talk some sense into me!!
Otherwise, things are way better. Nursing and milk supply are great – other than wanting to nurse constantly. I went to a mom’s group today and really loved it! The babies varied in age and it was reassuring to learn that some of the older babies found their thumbs, fingers around 3 months of age and they stopped relying in the boob for comfort. That is a relief!
I’m so excited for those of you who recently gave birth, are getting ready for birth and those who just are starting your pregnancy journeys! I can’t comment or read as easily because I do my posting from my phone these days. I’m thinking, cheering and celebrating you in my heart and mind!!