My first therapy appointment was ok. I wasn’t blown away by the therapist but I also wasn’t disappointed. I have mixed feelings about therapy but I am all for it for the most part.
The therapist confirmed that she doesn’t think that I am depressed and that my anxiety is “normal.” She also confirmed that our first loss may be adding to my fears and that it is legitimate to feel exactly how I feel.
She gave me some good tips and things to think about when I start to get anxious. She also is referring me to a public health nurse who works with parents of preemies. I hope that a home visit from a nurse will help – more than having my doctor dad in the house 😉
I go back again next week and we’ll see where we are and go from there.
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I want to say thank you for the comments in support of my sharing my anxieties and fears and going to therapy. It is very helpful to know that I’m not alone. I feel for each of you who have also faced post-partum anxiety and I’m glad to know that it will subside.
Even though I’m not able to comment as much, I try to read and keep up. You all are in my thoughts every day.
Xo,
Michelle
A Miracle In the Works 
I don’t know if you can be blown away by a therapist, especially in the first meeting. But I’m glad you weren’t totally disappointed, also. Good luck with your meetings with her, hopefully it will be a good fit. ❤
I have dealt with anxiety issues for as long as I can remember. I can only imagine how intensified those feelings would be with loss and pregnancy and hormones and a little baby. I hope things start improving. It can take some time, but you’ll get there. It IS totally normal, and it’s okay….it just sucks soooo bad. I’ll be thinking of you *hugs*
Anxiety sucks, a big one. I’m sorry you’re struggling but I do think it’s normal, I can only imagine how my anxiety will roar when baby comes. Just an idea… have you ever tried herbs or acupuncture? My acupuncturist gave me some herbs for my anxiety (which was out of control for a while) while we were TTC and it was a life saver. When I felt my heart beginning to race the anxiety started to take over I’d take one tablet of this stuff and in about 20 minutes the edge was taken off. It was really effective for me, and totally safe. It was called Nardova, but I imagine it’s hard to find since it’s a chinese herb. You’re doing great reaching out for help and seeking all the professional advice you can, you’re going to get through this!
Your therapist is probably right, that it’s all normal, but I think it’s beneficial for you to have someone neutral to talk to! Hope you’re feeling better soon 🙂 I’m sure you will!
Anxiety totally sucks. If you don’t still feel blown away by the therapist after a few sessions I say look for a new one! There are lots of great therapists in Seattle! Does she know anything about infertility? Sometimes someone that has gone through it can understand better the feelings during and after it. The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook is also really helpful – great techniques for calming down NOW! Good luck!