Twelve days until we find out if Roo is a boy or a girl! Now that we’ve fully decided to find out, I’m so excited. There are so many things that I love about little girls and there are just as many things that I love about little boys that I’d be happy with either. I’d love to have a little girl to shop for and play with growing up. But, I know about the challenges of having a little girl. I spent two years as a volunteer in an early childhood Montessori classroom (with kids ages 3-4.5) and the girls even at age three can be “mean” girls – “I’m not inviting you to my birthday party, if you don’t x, y or z.” It’s ridiculous. Little boys don’t have that kind of drama. But, little boys have their own kind of drama and challenges. Growing up, I babysat little boys mostly for some reason, so I have a little more experience with them. They are fun and are good cuddlers with Mommy! I can see MH with our little girl though too – she’ll have him wrapped around her finger! Either way, we are just looking forward to finding out if Roo’s a boy or girl.
I really appreciate the support that you all are giving me around the baby shower. I realize that I was being a little ridiculous – so many of you are still struggling to get pregnant and I’m whining about no one throwing me a shower (not very sensitive of me). I apologize. Yes, a baby shower would be a wonderful thing but it won’t be the end of the world if no one throws one for me. I would love the attention and the knowledge that my friends celebrate Roo as much as MH and I do but at the end of the day, Roo is our baby and no one could ever love him/her as much as we do. My parents have already offered to buy us the safest car seat available, so I know we’ll get at least one present! Also, a new friend here in Seattle met me for lunch yesterday and said that she wants to be sure that I get a baby shower!
MH and I are dealing with some outside challenges lately. MH’s mom was diagnosed with early Alzheimer’s Disease last September. The doctors said that it would progress slowly with anticipated full Alzheimer’s onset within 7-10 years. However, recent events have demonstrated that the disease is progressing more quickly than they were predicting. It’s very scary for MH and his sister and for me – it’s especially hard because his mom is in Wisconsin and his sister is just a couple of hours away in Chicago. From a selfish perspective, I also worry about how this will affect MH down the road. The disease has a genetic component, so it is very likely that MH could also have it. MH’s mom is just 75 years old – too early in our opinion to deal with this disease. Looking back, she showed signs of the disease as early as two years ago. Ugh, so very hard all around.
I’ve decided to start “coming out of the closet” but I’m still trying to figure out how to do it. My name is VERY Google-able because of my job. I’m not as worried about YOU knowing more about me but the other way around. I’m worried about potential clients/employers reading this blog – not because I’m ashamed but because I think it’s not their business. So, I need to think about how to do this carefully before officially doing it. If you’ve had experience with this before, please let me know what you did and how you did it (e.g., put your name out there like: J.ane Do.e, so you can see it but it isn’t searchable).
This week, Roo is the size of an onion:
How far along? 17 weeks, 5 days
Total weight gain: Up a total of 4.4 pounds since my very first OB appointment
Maternity clothes? Yes – and happy to be in them!
Stretch marks? None, fingers crossed!
Sleep: Off and on insomnia
Best moment this week: Having a stranger come up and ask me when I am due – I know some people are offended by it but I love it! I embrace being pregnant and am proud of it!
Miss anything? A good night’s sleep
Movement: I haven’t felt anything this week imagined or otherwise – hopefully soon
Food cravings: Any and all fresh fruit
Anything making you queasy or sick: Poultry
Gender Predictions: A girl!
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? In but my belly button is flattening out so much so that MH mentioned it the other night
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy though stressed!
Looking forward to: Our 20 week u/s and finding out the gender – March 12!!