I’m having trouble with commenting on people’s blogs – especially Blogger for some reason. My information doesn’t get verified and it goes round and round in circles. I’m unable to leave comments on Blogger blogs. It is frustrating for me because lots of you leave me comments and I want to return the support and am unable. Please know that I’m here, cheering you on, supporting you in your hard times and your good times, and in general reading 🙂
The insomnia is back and this time with a vengeance. I’m up around 1:30 or 2am and can’t fall back asleep until around 5am or so. Ugh! It’s exhausting. It’s making me depressed. OK, maybe not depressed but it is frustrating. It makes it hard to function that day in a normal manner.
I’m actually down because a friend from high school told me when I shared that I am pregnant that she wants to throw me a baby shower. She was going to ask another very good friend one mine. However, I know that my other very good friend is in the middle of a serious financial crisis – she just got divorced, etc. I don’t think the first friend is going to come through. It makes me sad. I’m planning to fly to the East Coast to visit this group of friends – girls who I’ve known since I was 16 years old. This might be my only opportunity for a baby shower because I don’t have any close friends here in Seattle, clearly since we just moved here, and I don’t have any super close friends in San Francisco who would think to throw me a shower – plus, I don’t know when or if we’ll be down there anytime soon.
So dumb, right?! A few months ago, I didn’t think that I would ever get pregnant on my own. Now, here I am pregnant naturally with our first little one (who by the way seems to be healthy in there, according to all blood test results!). I shouldn’t be bitching about my friends not being able to throw me a shower. I should just be happy with what I have and celebrate the fact that I’m pregnant and we’re bringing a life to this world and adding a new member to our family. I should be quiet now….
Boy, I’m feeling whiny about it and need to let it out. This might be the one and only time that I am pregnant. I want to celebrate the fact that we’re having a baby. I want to rejoice the fact that we are bringing this life into the world. So, I might just throw myself a shower and not call it a shower but a bump party. Is that lame? (That’s a rhetorical question). I don’t care if Emily Post would say that is not following etiquette…this is my baby and I’m going to celebrate Roo. Since I know that my girlfriends are more than happy to get together with me, they’ve all said they’re available the weekend I plan to fly East, I might just get everyone together for brunch and call it my bump celebration. I plan to register for gifts but I won’t explicitly ask for them (I wouldn’t even if someone did throw me a shower, I’m not that rude). Maybe none of them will show up and if they don’t than I will know who my true friends are after all of these years 🙂