It may have come up in a previous post or two that I’m struggling with what to do professionally. I am an independent PR consultant and I spent the last two years building my business. Since I got pregnant last November, I’ve been struggling with morning sickness (all day) and fatigue. Two of my clients wrapped up their projects in December and because of the first trimester woes, I didn’t do anything to fill those empty client spots. Now that I’m starting to feel better I’m disappointed in myself for not having any clients except for one pro-bono client, a non-profit cancer organization.
Knowing that I’m pregnant and thinking ahead to my future with a baby, I’m confused. I don’t know what to do about my career and professional life. I know that I’d like to keep working and ideally the best position would be a part-time position so that I have the flexibility to spend as much time as I can with Roo, when he/she is born.
The problem is that PR is a very demanding career with clients needing your attention at all times of the day and sometimes night. When I was working full-time, I worked 7:30/8am-7/7:30pm and sometimes later. I also was traveling a lot. It is not something that is sustainable as a new mom (at least for me).
The questions that I’ve been grappling with the past few months are:
- Do I keep trying to get new clients and only do shorter-term projects knowing that I give birth in six months?
- Do I look for a part-time job in an office environment?
- Do I recreate myself and find a different, more mommy-friendly lifestyle career? If so, what do I do?
- Do I take my professional career to the next level and take the GMATs (yikes!) and apply for business school next year (Roo would be one if I got in for a Fall 2013 start)? Is it even a rational thought to consider business school with a little one? If so, it would be an evening program or an executive MBA program – I need to learn more about the differences.
I’m hard on myself. Through the years, I’ve been pretty lucky but I’ve also struggled to find balance in my life. I have been very successful professionally – many of my high school girlfriends have said that they envied my career. But, I was always dreaming of how to make my personal life a little better. When I met MH, I slowed down. I realized that at 34 years old that if I wanted to get married and start a family that I needed to make a change. So, I left my six figure PR job. Three months later, I was engaged.
I don’t regret the decision because now my personal dreams are all becoming a reality but I am realizing that I also want to not forget about my professional ambitions….Ambitions, which are evolving as this pregnancy advances. How do I get to a place where I can be satisfied with both my personal and professional life? Is it OK to let go of my professional life temporarily? Will I be able to get back on track? How do I find the right balance?
Do you have any advice? Do you need any PR support (I know someone with great recommendations)?! 😉 Is working towards an MBA with a little one a ridiculous thought?
I apologize for the long post but I need to get this off my chest. MH is very supportive but he keeps telling me that everything will be OK. Yes, I know it will be but I need some focus and direction and I don’t feel like I have it, which frustrates me and causes me more angst. I need to let go of my type-A personality, right?!