Seriously, I wake up every morning and think that my period is going to come by the end of the day. I’m definitely trying to enjoy each moment but I can’t help but worry. I’m no on CD36 – which is one day longer than my last cycle. It kind of confirms that I think that I was pregnant last cycle but it wasn’t healthy enough to register on a pregnancy test – not that I tested very often. That said, I kind of feel happy that I’ve made it this far! Now, I just need to make it past 5w5d, which will be Thursday for me. On Friday, I will breathe my first sigh of relief.
I actually have been having this crazy thought that I’m pregnant from the last cycle and that I’m 3-4 weeks further along than I think I am. Is that crazy? I think so. I thought of this in the haze of the very early morning hours of 2am this morning when I couldn’t sleep. I seriously am one crazy lady.
In the meantime, tonight is our first social event since we found out last week. We’re having dinner with friends and I’m pretending to be the night’s designated driver so they don’t wonder why I’m not drinking 🙂
Whatever happens with this pregnancy, I plan to continue to blog and write about my experiences. I started writing about my infertility challenges for myself but in the end, I found a community of tremendous support from all of you and I love that support. I hope that many of you continue to follow me even if I write about things that are pregnancy, baby-related. I understand though if there are some of you who aren’t able to keep following my journey – believe me I really do – it is soooo incredibly hard to read about these things. I won’t be offended if you choose to stop following mine but I will keep reading your journeys and supporting you from afar. xoxo