For some reason this cycle’s TWW is really hard. Maybe they all are challenging and I block out each month how hard they are for me or maybe it is because of it being a 35 day cycle instead of the usual 27 day cycle I’m pretty certain that I was pregnant and it didn’t stick. Regardless, I feel like this cycle’s TWW is impossibly difficult.
All of the symptoms that I was having continue: extreme exhaustion (I seriously could have slept all day yesterday if I didn’t want to see my husband); really vivid dreams (at least one but more often two a night); being continuously hungry and thirsty (I bought a pink BPA-free, plastic cup with a lid and straw to drink out of – MH wonders why I can’t drink out of a normal glass and come to think of it, I wonder that too); a weirdly stuffy nose. I have a new “symptom” that I actually suspect could be related: my belly, uterus seems to be stretching. I feel it more this cycle than others. It could be gas or it could be cramps but I don’t think so. It’s stranger than gas or cramps – it’s a feeling that I’m not used to but comes and goes throughout the day and has for the past two or three days. Oddly enough, I felt it happen a lot during the night last night.
I realize that I could be jinxing myself but I also just feel that my body is different. It’s like it’s really trying this cycle to make it happen. And, I know that it can happen. I have faith that whether it happens naturally or through IVF that we will have a baby in our arms – just hopefully sooner rather than later!
If you’re here from ICLW, welcome! If you’re here just by chance, welcome too! Here’s a brief look into our journey so far.