My mom just informed me that my brother and sister-in-law are having a baby girl. Again, I’m so happy for them but I’m just so sad and jealous. I’m seeing a friend this afternoon and I have so much to do before I go over to her house but I can’t stop the tears from spilling down my cheeks. I can’t stop the sobs from escaping my mouth. I should be happy for them but I’m just so sad for me right now.
I want to be pregnant and have a baby so much it physically hurts me right now. So much for this being a cry-free cycle.
I’m just going to have to cry it out and embrace the pain. It’s easier than pushing it away. It feels better than denying it.
Please tell me when this gets easier? When I get pregnant? What if it never happens for me? What do I do then?
How do you get through these “supposed to be joyful” but very painful moments? Does it get easier?