This morning I woke up and feel much better. Yesterday knocked me off my feet but I’m feeling more positive and optimistic – I’m back to myself. I’m angry and sad about my struggles trying to get pregnant and stay pregnant and it was made very clear to me yesterday. Fortunately, MH was supportive and let me get all of my anger, frustrations and sadness out. I cried a lot.
I’m truly happy for my brother and sister-in-law but I’m sad for myself. The note that I actually sent in response was very short and nice (I think). I congratulated them and told them how happy I am for them. The end. I hope that one day I can better express my happiness for them. But I know that I can’t right now.
I’ve also decided that they haven’t taken away from my excitement about moving. I am still very excited to move to Seattle and nothing is going to get me down about it! In fact, I’m going to focus on our upcoming move and all of the activities around it. And, I’m going to focus on our own efforts to get pregnant so that one day soon I can share my own good news.